Friday, June 6, 2014
"Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and he will establish your plans." Proverbs 16:3
Mike's mom has had some really challenging months recently. She's been diagnosed with a kidney issue, has been hospitalized three times in the last three months, has lost part of a toe, and has been dealing with vision loss for about five years. Let's add to that that her husband had a stroke about five years ago and has had lots of struggles since that time. They live independently and manage to pretty well. It takes more work, but most of the time they handle things on their own...until this year.
We've tried to rally around Russ and Bev as a family and have seen recently that some of these things are just out of our grasp. We can't help the way we want to or they need us to. Additionally, they aren't able to do the things they used to be able to do independently. Last weekend was rough to say the least. They were trying to do something on their own that they actually needed help with. They don't want to inconvenience anyone, but it ended up becoming a bigger issue that took up more time, efforts, and energy to deal with on everyone's part. It also created a health risk issue for Bev that could have easily been avoided.
It hit me that my life with Jesus is much the same. I try so hard to do the things I can all by myself rather than committing it all to Christ. I wait until problems come up, and they end up being bigger issues than if I had just prayed through it in the first place or "talked with God" and worked it out with Him first. I often create my own problems rather than trusting Him in the first place. I want to be independent at times rather than yoked up to the One who makes my burdens light. I find myself so much more at peace when I surrender my wants and timelines to the Creator of Time Himself, to the One who knows me best and knows what best for me.